Save Our Souls.

MERRY CHRISTMAS

2006-12-25T21:59:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS !!!!!!!!!

argh! its christmas! the fav festival of the year. =D
but chirstmas eve & christmas was both spent alone rottin' at home! sians. =
didnt go for mos ystd, coz was really lazy, woke up at 3pm today! omg im such a pig!
whole day was wasted, actually wanna go out but den woke up too late today. so ya, im such a homely-man. =\

sians. i did a really stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid thing.

please dont take it to heart. gah

found this on youtube, actually saw it first on our ns-OA computer. oops. okay la, if you're bored (like me) watch it! its only a short clip abt a minute..

its christmas EVE!

2006-12-24T00:00:00.000+08:00

WAAAAAAAA! its chirstmas eve guys!!!!!!!!!!!!
and i've got no plans. hmmm.. maybe i'll join els & his frens at mos. i dunno. dont wanna be alone during christmas.

hmm watched 'Death Note 2 : The Last Name' few hrs ago at cine. okay la the show. change quite abit from the manga. feels like they wanna kill off the character & stop at 2. well they could probably go for 3 tho.

went out with friends today, was darn late. sorry sorry. couldnt slp well last night.

cant help but feel low thru out the whole day, sorry guys wasnt really myself today. was really distracted. i dunno why, or maybe i know why, but i still dont know what to do. i' am really worried abt you, really am. & i really dont know what to do. please someone tell me what should i do?

i really wanna ask you out, but with all that has happened im afraid that it may not be the best of times, but then again i dont even know if you'll agree.

ARGH LIFE's COMPLICATED! GAH!

oh man.

2006-12-23T01:18:00.000+08:00

what a day today has been, to know that you're sad and the fact that i couldnt do anything to help really sucks. just to let you know i am still here. forever and ever, .

its Friday!

2006-12-22T21:43:00.000+08:00

i knew it,

hmm today was suspose to be a peaceful day in the army, staff not around, all officers off/leave.
but s3 came back to be supervising for soc. after soc went back branch to slack around, den s3 came and drop a bomb on me.

he told me i'll be heading off for roc next year. omg. i still didnt know wad was going on. ask around, 'huh? wad roc? relax one corner ar? yeah right. okay for those of you who dunno, ROC = taiwan = infantry overseas exercise, which is rank among the top most 'xiong' overseas exercise. okok i know you think that im bullshit-ing, well i wish i was bullshit-ing too. but life's just like that.

but i still tot that i can slack in camp while the whole battalion is going off for NZ. hmm it turns out that i am going for local ex to prepare for ROC. okay there goes my only thing that i was looking forward to. how i wish i was involved in NZ so i dont have to go for Taiwan.

okay i always knew life was unfair, but i didnt know it could go this far.

okay on a lighter note, IM ON LEAVE TILL JAN 3 2007 ! Yeah !
2days more to Christmas.

but im so not looking forward to christmas and definitely not looking forward to 2007.
im sensing i'll be wasting my leave-week, slackin' round the house. some one ask me out please!

oh yeah caught "Night at the Museum" yeasterday, was great, 3.5 out of 5 stars. funny! was quite doubtful in the 1st place coz the previews really didnt excite me. but it turns out that the story's quite interesting. and everyting came off relatively well.

maybe life is just like that, sometimes when you think it really sux, something unexpected pops up. and changed it.

anyway, it could be worse tho! wahahaha.

gah.

where's everybody?

2006-12-18T03:37:00.000+08:00

its 3am in the morning,

and i've started blogging again, not that anyone cares tho,

it has been months since i last blog, blogging was never one of my hobbies, i didnt like it much either, it has always been a ranting place for me, till i suddenly found myself too whiney.

i took a day of LEAVE for today, my plans are to hmm.... i dunno i got no plans at the moment, well im sure i'll think of something while sleeping. its good to be sleeping at home for 3 nights straight, coz in most cases its only fri & sat that i got to slp at home. book in are always on sunday nights, which makes me wonder why.

i saw eragon ystd, was a-okay movie. heard that the author was only 16teen when he wrote the book, oh my, u have to give him credits man. anyway, the book was so much better den the movie or so say jim, i dunno, i didnt read it, but common sense would made me believe its true. cauze the movie goes along the usual "safe" story line. farm-boy turns hero overnight, kindda sound like superman tho, and fights villian to save the day. oh common'

well anyway life in the army have gotten lighter, they say its the calm before the storm. anyway, i've learn a little tricks of the trade by now. its never easy, especially since im a honest guy, well maybe too honest sometimes, but i felt really sick thinking of how i just agree & pretend to be just for the sick of being one. sometimes i just laugh my way through, other times i slack/work my way through, but all the time i'll be true. okay maybe that didnt rhyme quite well huh.

anyway, just a yr + a month, i'll be free again. i know its too much to ask, but would you wait for me?

gah.

2006-09-17T02:08:00.000+08:00

this doesnt means that i've given up. i'll never give up.

2006-08-20T22:28:00.000+08:00

hais, no point dwelling over the past.

POP lor! - yes, again!

got posted to 21SA at kranji camp.

was actually posted to 23SA which is like "lau" period now. all the way until sep2008 man! meaning that i was suppose to be going to 23SA and slack until next yr SEP! damnit.

but due to the act of a f-up sgt which didnt seems to like a fellow comrade of mine going to his beloved 21SA and choose to voice out his damn opinion & made the swoop & poof! my fren who was suppose to be in 21 took over my place in 23sa instead. its like wtf man. army sucks.

now im gg to 21SA. the active unit now. & in army active = bad, like really BAD. shit.

will be going to NZ [supposed to be the land where the LOTR was filmed] for 1 whole month next yr Jan or Feb. oh man. & btw overseas exercise in army also = to bad, like really really BAD.

i dunno la, just hope that my officer will be a gd guy.

Oh yeah ! and MAN U just won 5-1. hows that man. GLORY GLORY MAN UTD. gogogo.

Aye, gtg,
laters.

2006-07-30T18:26:00.000+08:00

wa sians....

6weeks of common phase over le. now going into specialise phase le. as i've said, theres 3 different vocation we might specialise in. 1stly, the BCP - aka. sit in big vehicle press button. 2nd, Recee & Survey - aka slack 1 la. sit land rover go ard press buttons. 3rdly, FOGA - aka. carry signal set + FBO chiong with infantry!

and guess which 1 i got? ya. thats right - FOGA.

i kindda expected it already since i failed my G11 & FireGate test.
but i didnt expect my two buddies to PS me & went into FA side. arhh.. damn sian la.
nvm. anyway good or bad, everything's gonna end in 18 months time. suck thumb la.

feel like getting a new hp. - the Ngage QD. the only good function is its ability to store mp3 & its non-camera-ness. other den that the hp is actually quite lousy. but no choice, the only non camera phone with mp3 ability is this.

arg im so hungry now.
gtg.
laters.

2006-07-23T14:51:00.000+08:00

yo! im back. but not for long. got to book in at 1900 hrs later. which means i got to leave home by 1730 hrs.
life in NS suck as usual. failed 2 test in all. G11 pratical & firegate. damn. 2 of the more important test. esp firegate. & the worst part is that retest have to be conducted. and hence the reason i have to reach camp at 1900hrs today. whole 3hrs full of my precious weekend time
taken up for this shitty retest. this week would be the last of our common phrase. specialise phrase would start coming next week. & there would be a change of bunk this friday. just as our syndicate is starting to bond together, we were force to switch all over again for the last 2weeks of our trainees life. i just hope that i can remain in AI after this.

hmm.. come to think about it, i've been in NS for like 3months & 2wks or so already. & 1 thing i really missed was seeing her online.

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Please come back home...

well gtg now.
laters.

2006-07-09T18:30:00.000+08:00

haiz. life has been boring. tests and shits starting tomorrow. totally no idea how im gonna get pass it. oh & its confinement if we fail the test. damnit. & the timetables' pretty dumb to me. tues having 5+km live run in the morning & then 18km march at night. i mean wtf?! run already still got route march. totally dumbass man. it takes a genius to plan that.

last week forgot to go for a hair cut. in the end got fark for it. long story man. it seems that that friday they had a parade & they were told to get a haircut by monday. name was taken down & sent to the RSM. damnit. 1-nil. oh & i got arrow on thur during outfield. got this farkup sgt thinks he's some big shot & i was so damn sway that he arrow me. got screwed for like 25mins. sians.

argh army really sux man. 1yr7months left. damnit. i wish time could just fast forward to feb 2008.

laters.

sick. literally.

2006-07-02T02:03:00.000+08:00

well... im waiting for the brazil-france match right now.

got attend c on thur night, high fever - 38.2C. basically wasted my fri & sat sleeping at home. oh & my guard duty got changed to next week. so i'll be back on next sunday morning/noon.

speaking of guard duty, i think im a marked man inside my course. my sgt major seems to think that im some attitude guy & tries to make life difficult for me. i could already see many more guard duties coming my way. damn. i try to keep a low profile but seems like it aint working.

oh ya & theres this freak at our camp who breaks into bunks & lockers to steal stuff. no he didnt go for money, nor the handphone and other valuables, he only wants LEVIS jeans. yes. he steals nothing but LEVIS jeans. nope not LEE jeans, only LEVIS. it doesnt matter whether its big, small, medium, large, wadever size/shape/colour/smell, he simply steals them all. *phew lucky mine's not levis.*

argh, i've got tons of movie i wanna watch. i havt watch 'xmen3' yet, althou i think they're not showing it anymore. humpf. i wanna catch 'just my luck' & 'superman returns!' arrrr! was suppose to watch it today but i aint feeling too well.. hmmm.. i'll c if i can catch it tml.

argh got to book in again tml. so sick & tired of army. 1yr 7months left. damnit.

arty.

2006-06-25T01:20:00.000+08:00

hmmm... khatib camp was quite all right.
our sgt are quite nice, especially my syndicate sgt! phew. the food's quite good, better den tekong's but i find it a lil too salty.
im on course right now, lasting about 9weeks. ending on 22nd of Aug.
from den on will be going into artillery unit. maybe 20,21,23 or 25 SA. & they told us to treasure our time here in AI before our course ends. sian1/2.

well life has been boring and stressful here. lots of lectures, and probably exams coming up, kindda like going back to school. except that when we fail our exams here, we get confine. damn. & i've already kanna Guard Duty this coming saturday. damn sway la. 9 out of 45 people. argh. why do i always get pick for shitty things. damn.

haiz guess i would only be booking out next sunday morning/noon. zzz.

arty!

2006-06-18T22:44:00.000+08:00

damn.. 1week+ of block leave so fast over le.. life at new unit about to start

got posted to artillery unit. at khatib camp. somewhere between khatib & yishun mrt stations. which also translate to : damnit, so far away from my home again. argh!

still dont know whats install for me.. was hoping to get into military police. but competition was tough. they called up 800+ people for interviews. which means theres 800+ people fighting for 105 places. & obviously i didnt meet some of their requirements. argh, screw that. just hope that my arty unit is full with good people :)

got to report at 8am tml. dunno the taxi driver know the place ma. speaking of taxi driver, i took a merc cab to jp that day. he took me 1 big round to pioneer mall, den another round to jw 900+ dere. den took a long route to jp. farking hell la.

gtg pack my bags.
Laters.

1yr 8months left.

pull not push.

2006-06-11T18:09:00.000+08:00

pull the door. not push it. damn.

5 people u meet in heaven.

2006-06-10T17:57:00.000+08:00

Parents rarely let go of their children, so children let go of them. they move on, they move away. the moments that used to define them - a mother's approval, a father's nod - are covered by moments of their own accomplishments. it is not until much later, as the skin sags & the heart weakens, that children understands; their stories & all their accomplishments, sit atop of the stories of their mothers & fathers, stones upon stones, beneath the waters of their lives.

sayonara.

2006-04-06T17:51:00.000+08:00

Well, i guess this is it.

tomorrow will be the day
where boys will become man,
or so they say.

so bless me with all the might
and wish me nothing but the best,
for even the stars will light
up the sky for tomorow's test.
and pardon me if i might
just miss a little of tonight.

and so this is goodbye.
will be back soon. i hope.

laters.

campus superstar.

2006-04-03T00:56:00.000+08:00

wooot~ manage to catch the last part of campus superstar just now.
damn. my teresa aka yongling never win! argh. the damn zhi yang won. like wth.

ok some links from youtube on her previous performance. -

Fly Away -

Gu Dan Ba Lei -

Hui Gu Niang -

some other sing quite well too like the adriano & yuyang.

yuyang - chance chance.

Adriano - My Anata.

Adriano - Zi You.

anyway, went daiso today to look around & manage to buy 30bucks full of stuff. damn. i like spending money.
4 days left to army, & i havt really got all my stuff ready yet.
gonna go buy googles, slippers, watch & 'snake' powder tml. hope i can get everything done by tml.

oh went bugis in the afternoon too. went to check out "the icon" at bugis point.
i've read/heard some reviews abt that place & wanted to check it out.
but damn, its really disappointing.
1st off, theres so much stairs to climb. & each floor theres only abt 4-5shops.
2ndly, theres like NO guys stuff at all. i only manage to find 3-4 shops out of the whole place.

& on my way home i found out a new hobby,
that is falling asleep on the trains.

i like falling asleep on the trains. i dont know why.
& today i manage to get everyone around me to fall asleep too! i looked opp. & saw the whole bunch of people dozing off. i turned around & people beside me were dozing off too! & i just felt happy! Weird.

ok maybe i really bored,

laters.

2006-03-31T17:29:00.000+08:00

hey just came across this from dunno where.

seen it on "yu le bai fen bai" aka 100% entertainment on chan u before. but still it remains a mystery why i still cant do it.

anyway heres it. try it. should be useful.

2006-03-30T19:32:00.000+08:00

1 more week.

oh man... this sucks.

great memories!

2006-03-22T02:43:00.000+08:00

hmmm... i've been thinking alot about the past lately.
used to have so much fun in school- primary, secondary, but jc - hmmm not really.

that was 12 years of education.. but i could still remeber vividly when i was in primary school!
the running about in school,

the white, big umbrella seats outside library (oh used to be our favourite hang out place!) ,

the really dumb computer games corner near the stairs,

the fighting on the sch bus (yes, i had a big van ferry me to sch everyday until i was p5, i still see the bus driver with his red van occasionally) ,

the stupid bookshop auntie who likes to con innocent pri sch kids like us!

the creepy dentist room & the bloody red dentist file!

the lamey ACES-day workout! boo!

the styloform-board-and-whatever projects!

the 1 teacher teaches every subject other than MT system.

the chalkboard & the colourful chalks that the teachers never use.

the super-fast-plus-fun-but-rather-routine-recess-break,

the #1 drink stall, the 40cent drinks & all the drinking competition! woooo!
the nasi lemark stall woooo!
the noodles stall wooo wooo!

the basketball court, the giangatic soccer field! the 1.6km runs on muddy field and OH GOD its really very very FUN!

everyone was so pure & innocent then, so much good memorises flowing back to me.
How cruel time passes? Nothing waits. Money doesnt, chances dont & neither do people. we were all once so carefree, life was like a breeze!

arghh damnit, how things have changed.
remember how Mediacorp was still known as Singapore Broadcasting Centre? or TVSC or something like that?

or how we were using bus cards instead of EZ-link cards?
the non air-con buses,
the old orange-yellow bus stops?
the buttons on traffic light crossing was small & green!

Spice girls & the backstreets boys/westlife/nsync was the hottest bands around!

Or that people was still carrying pagers and/or phone cards instead?
everyone was still carrying CD-players / walkmans.

& those 486 computers, dial up connections.

who knows about hiphop or r&b?

and NO such things as pokemon, digimon, yugioh, hamtaro, the purple-dinosaur-whatever-its-name-is, there were only Power Rangers, Ninja turtles, Transformers, and Captain Planet! oh ya and SailorMoon.

oh man, so much memories.

if i could choose between having 10million bucks & going back to year 1999, i would choose.....

the money of cause! what? when i was young i used to think that money was the most important thing, now that im old i know it is!

laters.

i guess.

2006-03-20T21:32:00.000+08:00

well.. i think i've made up my mind. i wont repeat. thats all.

laterz.

so happy today! =)

confused.

2006-03-12T23:15:00.000+08:00

haiz.

my sec sch tcher just text me asking how i did for my alvls.

i told her & she suggest that i should repeat. im actually 99% going for the poly-after-ns route & 1% repeating. after the message iam sort of swaying towards repeating again. now its 60% poly & 40% repeat. its still increasing by the minute, the more i think of it.

i dont know. i have to act fast. the closing date for alvls registration is 25th march. i really dont know. what if i still cant make it after this year? then what? i would have wasted 3years. some more this year they're all dragons babies. more competition. what about my bio? the SPA assesments do i have to do it all again? How abt project work? Chinese? those should be completed by J1.

haiz. i dont know. HOW HOW HOW? army's approaching too. i sort of have my mind set on army already. & now?

sometimes i have a feeling that whatever i choose whatever decisions i make would be wrong. the more i think about it the more WRONG i'll do to it. my friends doesnt like going shopping with me. i looked at things i like but i think very long whether i should buy it. caused im afraid that if i just buy it without thinking i'll screw up again. feeling really down nowadays. i need a drink.

argh, fark life. why does everything depend on a stupid piece of paper? is a Uni cert so important? why does EVERYONE expects me to go to uni? i aint smart ok? i worked hard in the past & was lucky. but im tired now. my memory is failing me, i cant remeber so much things anymore. no im not senile, just that im tired. i cant go on anymore. im used to slacking already. its like im drinking this poison every now & then. & its starting to take over my body right now. & army's my only antidote. but this antidote has a side effect. this bloody side effect will affect my future. argh what am i talking about.

SEE.. im no longer able to study like theres no tomorrow already. i've sort of used to the feeling that its OK to fail my subects. Yes this is excatly how i felt then. with my bio & maths.

fug. why do i have to make so much decision? sometimes i wish my parents were my demanding & plan every single thing for me. lock me up in my room with books. straight home after school. no games no friends no entertainment no rest. study like your life & everyone else life depends on it. no encouragement. capital punishment for every below par result.

yeah maybe i need to be pushed. to my limits. till one day i finally explode.

bye bye farking world. BOOM.

Fullerton

2006-03-11T15:15:00.000+08:00

went for my coz' wedding at fullerton hotel yesterday.
the service was excellent. but the food was nowhere close.

quite class compared to my sis' wedding. no wonder almost everyone from my dad's side turned up. fug. hmm.. i dun quite like wedding dinners. theres nothing to say & the feeling's quite awkward, could only act busy by constantly smsing some random stuff. lol.

anyway, the food was bad. really bad. but the drinks was cool. ermmm.. just the type of wedding you see on tv. the ballroom, the cakes, the champagne, whatever.
i would never want a wedding like that. its toooooooooo.. BORING. pardon me. but thats way too early to say. maybe i'll change my view later when im older.

you know things change. we just have to move on.

arghhh.. laters.

unc

2006-03-05T22:40:00.000+08:00

i've been promoted. officially.

Call me Uncle MD! =P

fark.

2006-03-02T01:11:00.000+08:00

suddenly i feel so stupid.

i wasted 2yrs of my precious life for a piece of shit.

its really that bad that my civics tutor actually ask me to consider repeating.

he said this - "erm md i think u should consider abt repeating coz ur grades aint that good." without even taking a look at me.
Fuck you. its bad say that its bad. dont give me this aint that good crap.
Fuck you. u didnt even give my a goodi bag like everyone else? so wtf if i cant make it to the Us? cant i get the lousy freaking paper bag like everyone else?

seriously. this piece of shit is even lousier den my O lvl cert.

i dunno what to do now. I aint gonna repeat. coz even if i repeat i dont think i'll do any better. i did my best for all subects (except bio) even if i repeat i may just score a lil better. or WORSE.
and i hate JJ. Fuck JJ.

i dunno wad to do now. think i'll most probably apply for poly. start all over again. coz its the cheapest route. i dont think im gonna go pte U or overseas or whatever. i aint some rich kid who can just go oversea even if they screw up everything.

maybe i fooled around too much during jc. i know i can only blame myself. probably if i just put in more effort everyday. just a little more. but fark it anyway. its done & i can only reflect on my stupidity.

anyway. thank you ms goh, thank you mr ho. i noe u all put in alot effort for me. but i screwed up.

results.

2006-02-28T02:36:00.000+08:00

its Judgement Day day after tml, or rather tml since its nearly 3am in the morning now.

this sounds kinnda lame, but i actually dreamt of getting my results ystd. i remb the results was so damn bad that i crushed & throw that damn result slip on the damn floor and just walk out of the bloody hall.

im have totally no confidence at all.

i admit that i probably could have did better during a's. i lost a huge amount of motivation just weeks before the exams. & i pratically gave up on myself on certain subects. Bio in particular. i just hoped that ms goh wont be anywhere near me when i get my results coz i noe that i've really disappointed her in many ways.

Wish me luck guys, coz i'm gonna need ALL of IT! =S

story

2006-02-24T18:10:00.000+08:00

im bored.
if u are too, den take a look at the link below.

pretty long story. but like i say, im bored. =)

http://www.geocities.com/mysteriously_crazy/index.htm

2006-02-24T01:14:00.000+08:00

very tempted to. but i would never do anything to jeopardise our friendship.

.

2006-02-22T18:58:00.000+08:00

you probably wouldnt know this but it hurts me more than anything.

vday.

2006-02-14T03:34:00.000+08:00

merry v.day to all my dear friends. ~

free roses for all. =)

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ps : its the thought that counts! =p

pride.

2006-02-09T02:16:00.000+08:00

sometimes you just wonder why do people say harsh things to those closest to them.
many times you wished that you can take back whatever you just said immediately after you said them.
but that is human nature.
the closer we are, the more ignorant we are to one another's feeling.
i said many things, did many things i never wanted to do.
many words like "im sorry" goes unspoken.
its just so difficult to say it especially to those closest to you.

but the problem with me is that i never ever ever learn from mistakes.
the same route was taken over & over again.
yet words are still buried deep within.
it probably is the nature of the relationship which adds on to the difficulty.
or it could merely just be the excuses that i effortlessly made up for my mistakes.
either way, it all voice down to myself. - ourselves. We.

its really up to us. we all know the right thing to do. we just doesnt have the courage.

if man was really made by god, or whoever, then why werent WE given the courage to do things that are right?

or are we given it, but failed to use it?

are the ones who manage to overcome their many 'excuses' to do something as simple as a word of apology rank/divided/differentiated from those who cant?

if yes, then theres only one thing left to do.

that is to go to sleep early guys, & hope for a better tomorrow. a better YOU tomorrow. a better US. a better WORLD.

-PEACE,
Laterz.

relieve.

2006-02-07T16:49:00.000+08:00

it happened on 6 feb 2005, during the wee hours..
i was finally caught for using trainners for the game.
well it was quite a relieve actually. otherwise i might still be obsessed with it.

anyway, was losing money at zl's house that day. played a stupid poker game called "in between" darn.. couldnt believe my stupid luck fer that day. but i still insist on taking it on despite knowing it wasnt my day. well, whats lost is lost. i'll just win 'em back next time. =

bored, count down - 58days left.

laterz.

2006-01-30T21:06:00.000+08:00

happy LUNAR NEW YEAR to ALL~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

its 1nil.

2006-01-23T02:50:00.000+08:00

and the score is ; MANCHESTER UNITED 1 - LIVERPOOL 0

omfg and i couldnt believe it was the most expensive english player aka Mr. sleep walker aka RIO ferdinand who scored. =PPPP

i predited the score correctly la, but didnt buy. too tired to go out today, actually wanted to go out makan+watch the match with frens but they say it was gonna end too late, 2+am to be exact, so didnt go out. damn.

so bloody tired today, for some unknown reason. i slept early ystd but still freaking tired today. i guess my "inner clock" really is screwed up.

anyway, I wanna go ICE SKATE. dunno y, tot of alot of things lately. suddenly realise i didnt skate for so many yrs. i think the last time i went skating was 2-3yrs ago.

Laterz.

crap

2006-01-20T04:01:00.001+08:00

had dinner at swens ystd with frens to "celebrate" elst's departure from the gang. he's going to "serve the nation" in roughly 3-4hrs time. GOODLUCK bro; call me out for makan/pool/clubbin when u book out! =]

went fareast today to look for newyr's clothes... AGAIN. was luckier dis time round, got 2 tee.. 1 black 1 brown, the black 1's from freshbox, the brown 1's from nike. not bad. 60bucks in all. at least my time wasnt wasted, coz i usually walked for da whole day w/o buying anything. so ya, nt bad. =ROFL.. dere after, went makan + pool. all free of charge. hh stuck "toto", around 100+bucks, not bad considering the fact that he only bet 1-5dollars? den chiong pool until 12++ take cab home. ALL FOC!! =) [note to hh; stuck more toto please!]

tired tired tired, talked abt gg overseas again with the gang & seems like thailand is the best choice. still awaiting some comfirmation, hopefully its in feb.

gonna go do some running tml. jj's track seems okay. just have to wear my old pe tee + shorts LOL.

Laterz..

*arg.. im really worried about you. those kindda place, argh.. hmmmmmm.. but who am i to be worried about you?
im juz another 1 of your many friends. =(

bleach.

2006-01-15T02:02:00.000+08:00

if..
if i were the rain, that binds together the earth & the sky, whom in all eternity will never mingle, would i be able to bind two hearts together?

bored.

2006-01-13T16:25:00.000+08:00

no more bleach!!!!!!!!!!!!!! arghhh sad. =(

1st no naruto, now no bleach... omg no more anime to watch! =(

haiz my days without work r quite meaningless. slacking all day at home, due to the fact that im very very broke now. that damn company have yet to bank in my pay! so 'mei xing yong'.

but even after i got my pay, deres really not much left. my total pay was abt 600+ bucks. -$100 for working clothes, another $100 for transport + food, another $140 for my nike AF1 (that i got con of! queensway selling at 90+ only! damn.) , im practically left with.. 200-300 bucks. hmmm... enough to last me till i go for army? dunnno. monday going to hh's frens dere buying new adidas shoes, he told me that we could get ard 40% discount. well done man. telling me all these after i bought my AF1. anyway, i'll still buy 1 if its nice & cheap. =)

wanna get my hair dyed. jim say i'll look stupid. &*^$%%$ him la. ni dong she mo pi? =P

im so hungry rite now.. waiting for my dinner. im eating 1 meal per day rite now. pathetic.

laterz.

jobless

2006-01-10T16:43:00.000+08:00

oh forgot to mention that im now jobless.. & i had yet to receive my pay. damn. im broke =(

out~

2006-01-10T14:06:00.000+08:00

watched narnia ystd, not bad for the family & kids to catch the show.

went black again. hmm.. mayb shld really try other clubs nxt time. got stopped by some pple near macs, they were selling tix at a cheaper price than at the door, so bought em & went in.

didnt drink as much dis time, coz the drinks someone ordered was really bad.. thanks elst. =\ okok he was quite unlucky ystd, some dude had a drink too many and was like finding trouble. anyway nobody was hurt or anything.
fil drank a lil too much also, made me worried the whole nite!! got to stop her from drinking too much nxt time.

laterz.

2006-01-05T20:49:00.000+08:00

oh ya, happy new year everyone! =)

Im Back!

2006-01-05T18:51:00.000+08:00

weeeeeeeeee, finally had a day off! had been working non-stop since before xmas.

suddenly felt like blogging again, =)

hmmm.. can i say a little about last friday's prom nite?

i was really quite reluctant to go in the 1st place, coz 1stly, i was working that day, had to rush home to dress up & rush back again, and 2ndly, i didnt have anything to wear & was not willing to buy clothes just for prom. but finally decided to wear wad i wore on my sis's wedding. well was feeling quite odd coz the guys wore v.formally, & i look quite casual in my outfit. anyway, was a lil late, but as expected, the whole prom didnt started until ard 7? =/

prom was not as bad as i feared.. infact, it was great! met up with lots of friends & chatted alot. the food was okay, but thats really not important. couldnt really recognise some of the people there, especially the girls, they looked really different with those make-ups & hairdo - some looked really good, while others... hmmm... shant say much. =P

anyway, we went off halfway after eating the deserts, only to be stopped at the door by the J1 pple. saying that we shld stay a lil longer, as there was a video coming up, so we obliged & went back for the video. after that, we took a cab & went to chinablacks. what better time to club den now? the place was quite okay. the drinks was gd, the music was groovy, the smoke was bad.

elst went wild on the dance floor, so wild that at some point i tot he was gonna stripped. jim got fug up with the loud music & smoke, went 1 corner near the toliet to slack. i drown 2 shots of whiskey & was feeling tipsy, joined em on the dance floor, but without much knowledge of dancing, i looked like a tree rooted to the ground. suddenly remb some moves that i saw in movies, mtvs, shows, etc & tried some out. nobody was really looking anyway. =)

got high with the music, grooving to the beat, it was 2+ in the morning & i wasnt about to stop at all, but suddenly tot about poor jim, & went to persuade him to dance instead of just sitting there, (hey u paid for it man, just go dance or sumthing!) but to no effect. Instead, he wanted to go, & hh was feeling hungry, plus the fact that many of us had to work the next day, we went off right after i down another shot of wadever-that-red-drink-was.

so, it all sums up the prom day.
oh the only regret that day was that i didnt take many pix. =( i really wanted a photo with my J1 & J2 class - 04s31 & 04s5. i think i manage to take 1 pix with 04s31, but didnt take any pix with 04s5. sad la. anyway would really like to have some pix of them even thou im not in the picture! so with any luck, to whoever's reading dis if u're from my class & have pix on that day please send me!!! thanks a million!!! =)

laterz.

re-OPEN!!!!

2006-01-05T02:08:00.000+08:00

too tired to update anything, just wanna announce that my blog's back in business!!!

yeah.

laterz.

Closed.

2005-07-31T21:22:00.000+08:00

Blog closed until further notice.

thanks for those who occasionally visits my blog despite its boring-ness. =P

"I'll be back." Cya.. =)

Life.

2005-07-17T14:28:00.000+08:00

Do you ever wonder why we were born crying? is it because we subconsciously know that we are born to suffer, to struggle? If so why do some people still lead a good life (eg. those who born with a shinny gold key in their mouth.) but still cry when they were born? So Life should be fair the moment you were born. we all cry, no matter what race, language or religion. but what about those born without arms, legs, parents, love, food, with sickness, disabilities? Is Life or Fate fair to them?

If we have to work hard, or sacrifice something say our happiness/time/fun, or anything else in order to succeed, then what about those babies who were born with diabilities, they work hard trying to cry their hearts out, but they are not given a chance to live like a normal human being. Did god or anyone else give them a chance to work hard?

Many people train hard or sacrifice alot of things in order to gain something. some believe that by giving it all they've got, they will eventually succeed. but how many of this people actually succeed? Its really easy to kill a baby, but he's trying as hard as ever to live. In contrast they are some people who killed others but still live on. Is Life unfair? but certainly when Death come knocking on your door, he sees u as equal to anyone else.

There is only me.

Is it because life is unfair that people learn how to dislike, to discriminate, to hate others, differnt from themselves. Or is it our dislike, our hatred, or even our love that make this world a cruelly unfair, yet beautiful place?

Is life is about suffering and unfairness, why live it?

Because life despite its cruelty has its meaning. This Meaning is different to everyone, & only yourself can find it. Since life is so unfair, & you know nothing will change just because you whine and whine all day, why not make the best out of it by working hard, finding a meaning, & quit whining about things that has already happen or about to happen.

Perhaps it is better to believe that we will be able to gain what we want by working hard. Dare to dream, and hope that someday this dream will become reality. Work hard and give it all we've got.. only till then will we leave this world smiling & having no regrets.

2005-07-12T14:29:00.000+08:00

bwahaha.. i juz read the straits times today, the article on the NKF CEO shit. LOL its damn funny. the SPH's lawyer is damn funny lor. & the judge was like 'please answer to the question', 'yes or no' blah blah blah darn funny. esp the part with the lawyer questioning the CEO sumth like - 'if the guy who earns 1k per month(& donates 50bucks) noes that his salary couldn't even buy the bathroom fittings (refering to his golden tap) in your private office suite, you couldn't look him in the eyes.' i was like lol-ing in the darn sch library, lucky not crowded in the library. lol =D

argh im so tired.. i can slp at almost anywhere, anyime. speaking of which i feel sleepy now. haha. Laterz.

2005-07-07T21:50:00.000+08:00

i am quitting Maple Story for good.

1stly, theres not much free time for me to game.
2ndly, i totally screw up the game. i didnt noe a few misalocated stats points would coz me so dearly.
3rdly, i dont want my monitor to burn up again! rofl =P

but i'll still play once in awhile, help my buddy to train or sumthing lydat..

im super tired nowadays... keep on falling asleep in class. but i muz find time to train for IPPT. Must get a sliver - MUST. haiz...

oh yea. joinning interhouse bball. hope can at least win something. that time missed out on soccer. my frens told me to join but i forgot to bring my stuff. & i ended sch late. they got 3rd out of the 8 teams. which is quite gd! lol only lost 1 match.

ok betta get going now.. Laterz...

2005-07-03T19:26:00.000+08:00

FINALLY........ after 3weeks of hell...

IM BACK!!!!

yesh. omg im super duper dumb! arghhh.

ok dis wad happened. i played too much MS. the monitor burn up. den i brought a new BenQ LCD monitor(which sux like hell, but tts besides the point) , anyway, it appears tt the monitor port on my CPU got shocked coz of the burned up in my previous monitor. den have to call someone to fix it for me. den the guy took forever to come to my hse. keep giving lots of excuess, den make appointment den last min say cant come. argh.

den she finally came today. in less den 5seconds my monitor came alive again. she didnt even change anything. she merely pluck out the switch & pluck into another port on my com. ok it sounds quite confusing, in short, i got 2 monitor port on my cpu. she juz switch to the new port as my old port was burned up. darn. & all this i could haf done MYSELF! arghhh. How DUMB rite... zzz. & i paid 50 bucks for nothing. dumb dumb dumb. =(

okok now the com's back online its time for me to get playin' again =)

Laterz.

Oh sharks

2005-06-03T20:25:00.000+08:00

oh sharks.. dere goes my 1 week holiday, got loads of hwk not done yet. sharks.

anyway, finally got to play my maple story. was kindda fark up coz i havt been able to connect for the past few days. something wrong with the connection i tot. den actually found out i d/l wrong game client. lol' i d/led from its global website, but actually shld d/l from the south east asia website, anyway.. juz played for a few hrs. kindda bored already actually. lvl 8 now, gonna be a mage soon! yea... anybody playing add me up yea! My nickname : mDDD .

ok gtg go play again le! lol' =]

Laterz.

2005-05-30T12:31:00.000+08:00

im bored.

"IF ONLY UR EXPLAINATIONS WERE AS GOOD AS YOUR SARCASM!!"

2005-05-26T16:57:00.000+08:00

juz came back from econs lesson. & i only had 1 thought in my mind.
"IF ONLY UR EXPLAINATIONS WERE AS GOOD AS YOUR SARCASM!!" SCREW ECONS.

arghhh. damn it la. holiday like no holiday. wth.

1st week - pre u sem. lucky nothing to do with me. *phew.

2nd week - lessons almost everyday. from 9am-4pm on some days, with econs the most-hated-lessons of all. taking up 3+hrs each day.

3rd week - lessons on GP(duration unknown) & econs, again, specially conducted for me & some other "lucky" 1s... 2-3 hrs each. haiz..

Last week of hols - MID YR EXAMS starting on Tuesday. & how the fark am i going to find time to study for it?! T.S.U.

Oh ya.. btw, LIVERFOOL oops i meant LIVERPOOL, won the Champions League.
How dramatic. i was gonna bet on the match. i had a feeling LFC was gonna win dis, but couldnt find anybody to take my bets. Anyway, the match was damn drama. Milan leading 3-0. LFC fighting back to level it 3-3. THREE freaking goals in 6 minutes. call dat a miracle. & even more drama was the penalty shoot out. LFC keeper Jerzy Dudek denied Andriy Shevchenko, arguably the best striker in the world presently, from the spot. how ironic, considering that it was Shevchenko penalty in 2003 champion league final against Juventus which won them the crown. How disappointing considering that Milan had such quality in their defence, in Cafa, Stam, Nesta & captain Maldini.

but LFC shldnt be so happy yet. they might not get to defend their title in 2006, coz they failed to qualify for the 4th & last CL spot in the EPL.
Heck la. anw, they deserve the credit to win the CL.

Laterz.

da better team lost.

2005-05-22T12:07:00.000+08:00

wad can i say..
the better team lost?
dis is totally unfair, but i shld haf seen it coming at some point of time.

yes its the damn FA CUP Finals between MANCHESTER UNITED & ARSEnal dat took place last night.

the ARSE won.. only becoz of their freakinly outstanding keeper. MUFC totally dominated the game. but they juz lack the damn luck & the cynical finnishing dat, on a better day, RVN could provide. or the "moments of magic" ROONEY shown throughout his 1st season wif his fantastic volleys.

The man of the match was nevertheless undeniably Wayne Rooney, who had sparkled throughout and could hardly believe that so many chances went astray or that Lehmann was so freakishly inspired.

To quote from soccernet;
"It was, in truth, a complete travesty. A sporting robbery of the highest order."

yesh, how true.. a Sporting ROBBERY of the highest order.
we hit the damn post twice, a goal-line clearance, & a goal dat was ruled offside. dat could haf been 4-0.

well, i'll juz stop whining here, dis juz sums up a very disappointing season for MUFC. 3rd position on the EPL. crashing out of CL in the early stages. Took over by a borrowing-from-bank millionaire, leaving mufc in £540million of debt. A season without any silverware. well, deres always a next season. a better one, i hope.

Laterz.

starrrwarrrsss

2005-05-19T23:46:00.001+08:00

yea. weekends! lalala. watching star wars tml.

oh yea & tml's half day. due to our championship winning vball gers. suppose to end sch at 10. dats 2hrs of sch as the 1st period starts at 8.
howeva. my lessons ends at 9. which means 1hr of sch. dats bullshit man. & i've got to wait until 10 before i could step out of the damn bloody sch. double bullshit.

anw, the plan tml was to chiong LAN/pool/arcade/wadeva till nite time den watch movie. follow up wif majong majong & more majongs at frens hse. woooooo... super look forward to it. yea =)

now, time to get some slp.
Laterz.

sharks.

2005-05-11T21:51:00.000+08:00

ARGHHH.

my internet connections haf been damn unstable since god-noes-when. i juz dun get it. how come only mines' so unstable. upon asking nobody, nobody except me experience dis kindda shit.

dis made me wonder..
is it my computer's problem?
is it the modem's problem?
is it farkin singnet's problem?
is it the telephone wire's problem?
or is it juz plainly my unlucky-ness.
i dunno.
& i dun care.
wait a minute.. i do care actually. duhz.
....
arghhhh forget it.

oh ya.. our vball gers finals today. didnt go watch but the results r out. they r 1st. CHAMPIONS!
yea kindda expected it. lol' i juz got a feelin dat our vball gers r gd.
dis yr like all the gers did quite well. i think bball gers team did well too. top 8? 4? maybe can reach finals? not really sure. but the fact dat they r still in the competition means they muz be advancing well.
ok hope they win too. another champion from bball & we may haf a few days off school? lol. as some kind of bouns / rewards? its highly possible leh. i think. lol. =]

Okok. Laterz.

talent time 2005. a day of highs & lows.

2005-05-07T17:55:00.000+08:00

jj talent time today.. erm i meant ystd.

Ok. lets start. hmm u noe actually i wanted to join dis yrs talent time too.. well not that im talented in singing, & coz not dancing, but i juz feel like give it a try or sumthing. but i couldnt muster any courage to go solo for the auditions. i turned to frens thinking of forming a group for the singing category, but my frens dun wan.. &.. the 1st person i tot of, well... hmmm.. aiya lets juz say things didnt work out as i previously planed. c, i didnt wanna get to finals or win anythin wadeva, i juz wanna like at least go for audi? but i didnt in the end.. how typical of me. i always say im gonna do dis im gonna do dat but in the end it always ends up in a different way. well, anyway, back to talent time, last nite should i say its a night full of highs & lows.

ok to start off, the opening was by dis senior batch of students, a dance grp, i think its called twister 199 ? ya shld be. ok their dance was quite ok. some wad like settingthe tempo for the show already.
then the real deal started. 1st up was solo chinese vocal. well i muz say, all were way below my expectation. i didnt think they did well at all. the 1st singing was blury, the 2nd was too soft, & the 3rd was juz plain shouting. oops. den again, who am i to judge? hahah. nvm. ANW, things got much betta in the english vocal solo. the 1st ger singing the 'if i aint got u' by alicia keys was great. my personal favourite. but i dunno wad happen the judge got bribe or sumthing, & she end up having only a 3rd runner up. Such Bullshit. anyway, i dun think the other two sing any betta, oh well the other ger singing the same song was ok, but i still thinkthe 1st ger sang betta.

ya.. den came vocal groups category. ehh.. how shld i put it. the tkd group's team was in it & they did an Echo-pear-la [ie.no background music but use their voice to mimic instruments?] type of song? iya pardon my spelling & explaination. well the song was ok, but personal i think they sux. oops. anw, i didnt think they'll reach the finals, but they got 4th too i think. which was a so damn good results for them already. omg. im so evil. lalala... anw, again the champs of dis category didnt deserve it at all. i mean only 1 person in the group was good. but this is judging on as a group, not juz 1 person. the 2nd-placed group did way better - as a group. in fact they were terrific! =]

den came the dance group. my class got in, & guess wad... they won! yeah. happy for them la. did well, as a team... deserving winners. their dance was quite creative, a kindof surprising element in it. 1st timer who watch it will find it entertaining. yea. but obviously i watched it many times, during pervious audi. hah.

ok things was coming to an end.. no wait, oh ya.. guest performers. OMFG. deres dis guy.. from mediacorp i think, saw him acting in one of those lousy channel 8 shows last time. wallance ang? is dat wad he's called? ya. he sux totally. 1stly, he choose a women's song & he cant sing at all. he was off key, off pitch, got the words wrong, tripping over the wires, blah blah blah. wad a loser la. & he still got the cheek to say dat he couldnt hear the music so he was off key. my gdness dat was total bullshit. he was obviously unprepared, & forgot the lyrics. & blame it all on the music. brother, dun wanna sing dun sing la dumb ass. gotthe unhappy look on his face like some1 forecd him to sing or wad. arghh crap.

well dats abt it. oh ya.. 1 more thing. u noe i actually didnt bought the tix from the class at first. i didnt wanna go watch since i've been to the audis & 10 bucks was like fark. den i didnt buy from the class at first. den on friday, suddenly feel like watching. den dis classmate of mine happens to haf extra tix. & i bought it from her.. it was a blue ticket. which turned out to be a VIPs tickets. lol' i think i got the best sit of the show la. middle-centre. ya.

den i saw miss ho [my j1 math tcher], she came wif another tcher? & they r like cant find a seat. beside me was suppose to be 2 empty sits. but upon asking, the lady at the other end of the 2 sits said dat they were taken. what rubbish. i didnt c anybody from the start of the show. & den i think 2 "usher" came to sit on em' & obviously they juz happen to see the seats & sat down. totally bullshit man the lady, keep saying dat both seats r occupied. wad crap.

ok.. anyway, basically i think it was quite worth my 10bucks for the show. notbad notbad.

Laterz

BACK in TKD

2005-05-01T19:27:00.000+08:00

well i didnt get sack from tkd. theywanted us back. for some unknown reason.
maybe becoz. . . .

1stly, we r too gd / too skilled / too much a talent for them to sack us. lol' which is HIGHLY possible.

2ndly, they doesnt haf the power to sack us.

3rdly, they were juz trying to scare us/treaten us in the 1st place & didnt intend to sack us, but the dumb plan backfired.

4thly, maybe they still wanna suck our money dry for their club fund. treat us like sugar cane.

5thly, maybe they suddenly "liang xing fa xian" think dat they shouldnt treat us like dirt.

6thly, maybe they didint intend to fire us in the 1st place.

any of the reasons, i dun gif a damn. im juz bored.

Oh yea.. 'Star Wars episode 3 : Revenge Of The Sith' showing soon. MAY 19. YEAH.
lots of gd movie coming up. Deres dis 'Kingdom Of Heaven' seems nice too.. deres Fantastic 4 in June. & the most anticipated of all - Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.. in July. hope its as gd as the book.

Speaking of the book, Roald Dahl's books r the one once i ever read when i was still a kid. i remeber the 1st book i read was tortoise or "Esio Trot" when i was in pri4? haha.. quite nice.. den i continue reading. my favourite had to be Matilda. Charlie & chocolate factory / glass elevator, The witches, henry sugar etc were quite nice too. & since pri sch i havt been reading much books. muahahhaaha. =]
ahhh.. memories.. pri sch daes.. its all like a dream. =

Laterz.

2005-04-23T00:57:00.000+08:00

got officially SACKED from tkd todae. well, i dun gif a fark.

so tired rite now. i feel like bloggin. but nth to blog.. next time ba.

Laterz.

verdict.

2005-04-16T22:58:00.000+08:00

ok. i managed to survive ystd, apart from the numerous "PAT" on the back, im basically unharmed. yes.

really happy dat many of my frens remb it. sending me msg. thanks to all~

hmm.. i havt hand over my progress report juz yet. the plan was to gif myself in on sunday nite so as to minimize the effects of post-results naggings from my mum. hope the plan would not be foiled by the civics tutor of mine who mentioned of wanting to call my parents to make sure i didnt forge the signature myself. how untrusting.

well anyway i figured out dat i might be ban from the com for some time after my mum saw the wonderful results of mine. & im getting damn fed up wif the com nowadays. its running so damn slow i cant even watch my anime properly on the com. & the loading for wadeva programmes r the same. argh shitty. gonna reformat again soon but had to get new cd to back my files 1st. i dunno la. so damn fed up.

& next weeks bio test. all j2 topics omg sure die. & i've got math to worry abt. damn. im forced to stay back 530-730pm for maths. omfg. dis is so damn farking lame.
so many things, so lil time.

& yet another wasted sat...

finally.

2005-04-14T20:28:00.000+08:00

okkkkk. i noe. i've been MIA from blogging for like abt 1 month? hmm... i dunno la. juz dun feel like blogging.

saw my progress report today. F F F & F. no im not swearing or cursing but dats my results. & no i dun take 4 subjects. the last F is a F9 for GP. hah. no funny la... i dunno wad im doing. my results really sux. & dis term is like really jia lat. haiz. i dun think i can make it. evey tcher is askin me to stay back after sch for xtra lesson. but they juz cant farking get it. it doesnt mean tt staying in sch till so late to study will farking help me. i'll rather go home early & take a nap & study at nite. hah. no such thing. wheneva i reach home im dead tired. dun mention abt revising or studying. i cant even do my hwk. & no i cant do hwk during my free period. i juz cant. haiz.

& i dun wanna go to sch tml. but i've got no choice. tml's my bdae. & i noe my frens haf been counting down to dis dae for dunno how long. - no, i wont receive any present.. but a big, HUGE, bdae b-a-s-h.

hmm.. juz hope tt tml will be a betta day. as i approach the 18 milestone.

Cheers folks.

EMOTION filled.

2005-03-04T19:46:00.000+08:00

Date : 4th March 2005.
Time Started: 6:38pm

wondering y im stating the date & time so clearly? hmm.. shld i say dat dis might well be my last entry, for some time at least. no im not going to die. im juz quitting blogging for the time being.

since dis might be my last entry, i shall make it as long as possible. =)

as u can c, i havt been blogging regularly. dere's either nothing interesting happening or im juz too busy to blog. usually i wont gif much tots to wad i write. i juz write wadeva tt comes to my mind. but im changing dat slightly. the start time stated indicated is actually for myself to guage how much time i actually take to type out & post an entry.

today the A lvl results for the 2004 batch was release. & i met a BLSS/JJC senior & he juz booked out todae from NS. he scored all str. As for the 4 subjects he's taking, & a B3 for GP. at the same time & i also got back my Chi AO lvl result. i got a C5. wasnt really up to my expection but as they say, u reap wad u sow. & dis events made my realise something.

i've really got no time to waste.

not juz becoz A lvl is like a few months away (i dun really noe which month of the yr A lvl is conducted), but its my results. i havt been getting anything close to gd results or even acceptable results lately, well actually i've never been getting em frm the beginning. from the start of dis yr its like test after test after test after test. & im getting like wad? 4-5/30 for maths? bio & econs is killing me too. not to mention GP the suck-est of them all.

but my fren said sumthing tt impacted me todae. - ATTITUDE.

he told me dat my attitude is all wrong. i cannot keep thinking tt i'll fail. try once is not enough.
i've been thinking alot since he said dese words to me. & i realise tt wad he say is so damn true.

From the beginning of last yr - which is after i got my O lvl results & decided to come to JJ. i didnt got into the course or shld i say subj combination dat i wanted. i couldn't take chem because ALL science students wanted to take CHEM & deres only limited class/tchers/labs for chem, & as a result of not attending 1st 3 months & my poor o lvl grade for chem/bio, i didnt got the chem/bio/math combi dat i wanted. i got econs/bio/maths instead. the whole sch now left 3 person whos taking the same combi as me. mayb some of u shld noe tt dis combi is a killer combi plus deres really nothing much in UNI i could get into wif dis combi. CHEM is a must for almost ALL sc related course in UNI. & due to the fact dat dere was only dis few pple wif the same course in the sch, we have to go into a class where pple r offered 4 A lvl subjects. therefore my timetable is like fcuk since last yr. & from dat day onwards i've dis mentality dat even thou i work hard & get gd/Ok results, the choice is limited for me. i've told myself from the start dat im juz trying out jc life. if i really cant make it, i'll go to poly. im still thinking dat way but i noe poly's not really easy too. but the prob lies wif the fact dat im constantly telling myself dat dere is always a poly if i cant make it. & becoz of dis, i havt been giving all my 100% to my sch work.

I blame almost everybody & everything. i blame the timetable for going home so late everyday & thus no time to do hwk. i blame the tchers for not being gd in their teaching, not passionate enough for their students. i blame the principal for not giving me the combi i want. i blame my family for talking/watch tv/doing wadeva so loudly dat i cant concentrate on my hwk. i even blame my lousy sec. sch PHYSIC tcher for not teaching physic properly(im still keeping it dis way becoz its the truth!) i even blame the lights in my house for being too bright/dark. i push the blame everywhere else but to MYSELF. it really its down to me in the end. i've always complained dat i've no time or im too tired for hwk or dat i dunno how to do them. but i've always had the time to surf the net, chat online, play com games, watch tv, anime... blah blah blah.. BUT i've no time for studies. its my attitude of approaching the obstacle dats wrong. i run away from problems & look for easy-way-outs. i blame GOD for the bad luck he gif to me. but i juz never confront the problem. i has always been like dis. another issue - the pull ups.... abt JAN next yr i may be in NS, straight away after the A lvls. becoz u see im born in April. April is usually in the so called 1st half of the yr intake.(i blame my fate fo dis too) & if i didnt get at laeast a SILVER for NAFA test dis coming april(how ironic) i'll haf to go into NS earlier. to so call train up & get ready for BMT dat every1 have to go thru. i am able to secure at least a D(min for a silver) for all the stations except 1. The Pull UPs. i have been failing NAFA test since sec 3. i always tell myself if i cant means i cant. i have to accept it no matter wad & go into NS earlier den the others. the same thing happens again. ATTITUDE. frens have always told me dat doing push ups to train my arms muscles is the best(& some say ONLY) way to train for pull ups. but the prob is i never believe them. its all RUBBISH. i did push ups but the situation is not improving. "Aiya, juz gif up la." 1 of my fav phrase. but the problem is i havt been consistent in doing the push ups. i give up easiler coz its tiring & i dun c results fast enough. the same thing happens in Studies. U muz be consistent in learning, its easier to gif up, & u dun c results fast.
thus my approach to both problems haf been the same - "GIVE UP." dats y im still a louser now. my studies is shit, my fitness is shit.

thus, i've realised dat i shld spend more time on 2 very critical & important issues now. STUDIES and FITNESS. i shld really cut down on spending time on computers/TV/etc..

I noe dis is difficult. but since i've choosen dis path i've got to fight my way thru. dis is reality. nothing goes well in reality & u juz haf to handle the problem & not run away thinking dat miracles will happen. hah. its easier said den done. i dunno how i will make it happen but i'll TRY. at least for dis yr. dis EXTERMELY CRUCIAL year for me. Wish me luck my frens. =)

Laterz.

GP SUX

2005-02-25T00:10:00.000+08:00

arghh. im rushing hwk now!! alot havt done yet.. 2 gp summary, APQ, math assignment, econs mindmap. ARGH.

bio test tml also.. havt study! arghh. tonight no need to slp le! but im so damn tired....

somebody save meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

pon sch tml? but i juz poned ystd! omggosh. arghhh. =(

[PS: GP SUCKS BIG TIME.]

x.

2005-02-22T21:38:00.000+08:00

hmm.. think im not going to sch tml. sian. my fren la. haiz sian. hope i can get a mc successfully tml.

guess wad i got for math... 4.5/30 . hah. worse den the 1st. haiz. i dunno wad to say. i dun like graph related questions? x.

i really wanna quit jc. so much hwk, so much test. so much things to do & so lil time. im not suitable for it la. im so lazy & its driving me crazy. how i wish that i was born rich.

Laterz.

2005-02-20T14:05:00.000+08:00

hmm.. im so tired nwadaes..

ystd was Love Fiesta. sold some bee hoon & tori Q. lol the tori Q cannot make it la. taste so.. erm.. i dunno sometimes too sweet sometimes the meat not really nice. but i think we muz like cook it longer or shld i say marinate it longer coz the taste didnt really got into it. i didnt tast the bee hoon but it smells good thou.. but 3bucks for a plate.. hmm.. & im not suppose to gif the customer more bee hoon. lol' i mean gif them more la. they pay 3bucks for a plate which cozt 30cents. lol. & we didnt prepare any plastic bags or wadeva for those who wan to take away. had to ermm.. "borrow" form the other stall? LOL.. so pathetic, i think they noe. juz tt they didnt say anything. & i spend my own 20bucks worth of coupons & im not full at all. had to go JP eat "lunch". after dat. totally wasted. lol' i dun think we can earn 200bucks.(we had to earn at least 200bucks. to pay back wad we borrow as capital at least.. & the rest is profit. lol')
well i think mostly those we came r our own jjcians. lol' i didnt go SA's coz my fren cant make it. lala..

damn got alot of stuff to do... GP especially. damn lots of hwk. was due to hand up last fri. but who cares? gave us so much hwk. she think tt we only haf gp to do? no need do other subj. hwk le la? dumb. my frens from other class dun even haf any to do. watched movie the whole week. darn. sian. going to do research on the global news. got a presentation tml. shit. she's sure to criticise me for sure.. who cares anyway.

Laterz.

FCUK.

2005-02-17T19:33:00.000+08:00

OMFG I CANT BELIEVE DIS!

NARUTO IS LICENSED! damn! ARGGHHH CANT DOWNLOAD ANYMORE.. arghhh damn pissed now.. my fav anime.. haiz.. already v unhappy dat deres only 1 episode released each week.
Now worst. licensed means no more to watch le. arghhhh... HOW?? illegal d/l? but i cant even find the site fer illegal d/l. damn..

arghh. shit. cant even buy the vcds. the episode r so slow. arghh.. any method to connect to toyko tv? watch live? but no subtitles oso.. arghhh. its a dead end. do i really have to kiss naruto goodbye? boooooooooooooooo. argh. nvm. juz haf to wait for the vcd to be on sale. meaning dere's a long time before i'll c the next episode of naruto.

ok. i'll watch other anime den. BLEACH seems good. i dunno la. anime is my life! boo.

2005-02-15T21:13:00.000+08:00

i dunno.

y am i so lazy?

humph.

i dunno.

its definitely easier to gif up.

dis song got stuck in my head...

"Send me letters from above
Send me strength, send me love
Such sweet love
Sing me songs that echo in my head and in my heart
That's where you are

And I don't know if you feel me here
I can tell you one thing that's clear
I will feel you..."

V dae.

2005-02-13T15:25:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. i juz realised tt our class r selling BEE HOON for Love Fiesta.. darnn.. tt means we haf to be dere like 9-5pm? arghh. i dun think we r gonna sell so long ba.. i dunno la.. & they'r selling like $2-2.50 for a plate of beehoon? i mean beehoon's so cheap & u'r selling so expensive? only fools will buy em. Boo. & the tcher wan us to sell like at least 30bucks worth of coupons. its not like its fer charity or sumthin. all the damn money goes to the sch? tt means Mr KOH gets to keep all da money up his arse. double BOO.. & we haf to like cook all in halal? lol' Poor TAUFIK had to get all the stuff from his hse & cook since he's the only malay guy in class. LOL. i juz hope we can sell finish fast & go off.

Oh Yeah.. Tml's Valentines Day.

A fren of mine once told me dat v-day's not only for couples but for frens too! So...

To my frens who r attached : haf fun! but dun be disappointed if it doesnt turn out to be wad u expected ok? everyday's V-day if u'r happy togeter rite? rofl. =)

To frens who aint attached : haf hope! Love is in the air!

To ALL : I Lurve U all!

To Her : I lurve u... we r destine 2 be 2gether. i noe u lurve me too. juz dat we havt met each other YET. heehee. =)

nil.

2005-02-10T23:45:00.000+08:00

another yr gone. another dae gone.

finally done wif the annual ritual of torturing the kind souls.. yesh the evils of CNY. . i dun like to face those "i-only-c-u-once-in-a-yr-gif-me-the-red-packet-&-piss-off-plz" relative from my dad's side. i cant strike a conversation wif them & most of them look down on me. Especially dis OLD frag who think she's such a high class beauty saloon boss. so fcukin' unpoliet. hello? i mean wads ur problem? i took the damn initiative to say "happi nw yr" when u tap so unpolietly on my shoulder & juz stick the damn ang bao up my face. didnt even smile back or say sumthing gd.. juz gave me the who-do-u-think-u-r look & walk off. HELLO? i shld haf said no thankz, i dun need ur ang bao, save it for urself.

but being the new yr we shldn't hold anything agaist anybody. so im cool wif dat.

Yawnz.. so tired.. when to my pri sch tcher's hse juz now. but my frens left quite early so when to another fren's hse to play majong instead. didnt do much basically juz slack ard & went home. another wasted dae. tml going back to sch. dis short break really not enough. hope no tkd tml. boo. =(

argh gtg la. Laterz. PEACE .

2005-02-08T23:46:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR PPLE!!!!!

HUAT AR !!!!!!!!!!!!

when to watch Constantine todae after schhh.. Not bad la. but not really free flowing i shld say. some parts i cant hear wad the dudes saying. & i cant read the chi subtitles.. strange.. & i miss the last part, after the credits. the newspaper said after the credits deres still a lil bit. but we were rushing home for dinner juz now u c.. argh wadeva la. sianz 1/2... LOL.. only brought 1 tshirt & 1 shorts all black sia.. shit. dunno why oso.. argh dumb me. hope my relatives dun mind eh.. heehee.

oh yaa. juz watch the tv. says wad lucky colour fer rabbits is sumthing like PINK? lol.

WADEVA~ =P

sianzation.

2005-02-04T19:50:00.000+08:00

hmmm seems like i aint updating often eh? didnt really haf anything i wanna tok abt la. sch was as sucky as ever. the test r coming like "river flow" 1 after another. sianz. im a loser la.

didnt go for tkd todae. partly becoz i was so damn not in the mood & oso i injured my leg. AGAIN. well not really serious thou, feels lyke a lil stretch, but seems like not recovering. i dunno la.

Yes! finally la. CNY comming. break from sch. actually gonna pon mondae. but got some tourism outing shit, heard dat some chi newspaper reporter gonna go wif us to take some pix. juz dun take my pix. i'll SUE u if u publish em. crap la. still didnt manage to find anytime to get new clothes.. arggh. =(

got a sneak preview of wads gonna happen tue at the sch's cny celebration. crappy la. the lion dance super funny. cant get the "vegetable" down during the cai qing - if u noe wad i mean.
" eh the piece of vegi wif something like a banner when u pull on the vegi the banner will come down revealing some auspicious words? " yea tt's the 1.

oh yea 1 more thing. dumb JJ having Love Fiesta on 19feb. omg super shitty la. think it happens to fall on the same day wif AJ & SA's fun fair too. they gave us like 50bucks worth of coupons to sell damn la.. who in the hell am i gonna sell them to? i think i'll like buy 10bucks myself den return the unselled ones.

im tireddd. dunno wad ta type. stopping here. PEACE.

2005-01-28T23:39:00.000+08:00

wa... bio spa todae. rofl. dunno wad the hell the question asking abt. nvm la over le.

lalala. went TKD todae. hohoho.. rarely go to tkd but hey they say deres no training, juz playing games. so i went. & yup, new j1s join in. played some water games.. which was quite fun indeed.. wee.. if every training was like dat.. & i'll be regular. muahahah.

so darn tired. shit. chi new yr coming soonnnnnnn.. havt bought any new clothes. omgg. i think maybe tml go town buy? or shld i go play bball? arghhh dunno la.
i dun like to shop for clothes... muz try out & stuff.. so ma fan. but i seriously need new clothes.
arghh some much things to do, so little time. arghh.
tiredd. going to slp. SINGNET screwing up my internet connections. boo. shldnt have sign the damn contract wif them. but too bad. 1 & half yrs to go.

Laterz.

shagggggg.

2005-01-26T19:45:00.000+08:00

arghh.

got back math test. 5/30 hah. more or less xpected la.
JC life sux.. i totally dun understan ALL topics of ALL subject.

im really tired. plz dun gif me da "u can do it if u try hard" shit. its crap.
its pointless fer me to continue.. on the verge of giving upp. plz show me a sign. somebody. anybody.

quote.

2005-01-21T22:31:00.000+08:00

hmm nthing much juz wanna post a quote.
"remb that u r unique, juz like everybody else."
the focus of the quote is like everybody else.. so dun try to strain urself too much to be unique. juz be urself, go wif the flow, & all those who hate ur guts can jolly well fark off.

ok off to watch american idol4 or was it 5? i lost count. its really fun to c those different type of pple wif extremely different, unique personality. how they try to treasure the moment, lose themseleve in the music, & not forgetting to end off wif a @#^$!&* msg when they didnt get thru. the emotion support, stong bonds between frens, families, tchers, students. sometimes it may not be the competition dats all impt. wad u r searchin' for might juz be wif u.. all dis while. treasure the moment. nv let dis chance slip pass.. never again.

u only got 1 shot do not miss ya chance to blow, dis opportunity comes once in a lifetime....

what a day.

2005-01-19T19:13:00.000+08:00

omg.. juz came back frm schh.. damn. super sway todae.

muz start everything from the beginning.
1st ystd nite i was preparing to do finish my tutorials. however suddenly somebody cast a slping spell on me & i went to slp. before i knew it, the time was already 130am. i drag myself up to finish the damn tutorial(bio) at abt 330am went back to slp again. den the stupid alarm clock dunno y the hell started to explode at 6. i was suppose to wake up only at 7. after pressing the snooze button i went back to slp. i juz close my eyes den 7am liao. quickly wake up wash up. 730 went out. when i reach the sch pple started to run. i tot i was late too, coz the jj system super cock up nowadays. so i ran wif them. i say i tot. so i guess u noe wad happen next. i wasnt late. darn.

ok! nvm todaes gonna be a gr8 dae.. i try to convince myself.
but FAILED.

wad follow up was GP lesson. i went in early & book my place by the side. the tcher came in immediately ask us to move in. darn. i moved to the centre. right under her nose. i didnt do my hwk. & she asked me alot of question. we were doing sumthing on history/past, which she went thru ystd in class. i tot i remb. (i studied history during sec sch.) den she asked me abt the china culture revolution. i said it was to improve the standard of living of the pple in china.[4 ur info, the ans was suppose to be that the govt purge intellectuals(doctors/surgeons), ordering them to be farmers & farmers to take up their respective role.] she was damn pissed. started to ask questions after questions. i got most of them wrong. damn. ok finally GP was over.

i suddenly remb tt i had a damn econs mini test todae. didnt study. used my breaks to flip thru my notes.

den came bio. i was quite relax coz i did her hwk. den she came in & ask us where we stop. till den did i realise tt she was not going thru the damn new tutorials yet. ok. wasted my effort to wake up in the middle of the nite to do. nvm.

ok time pass & i was spare for the time being.

den came PC [aka. PE la]. did usual stuff & PE was over in an hr's time.
den waited for my other frens to play bball or any other stuff.(their PC was at a later time slot)
for the time being we(me+ 1 more fren) went to c if deres any ball games to play anot. ok, nobody we noe + no room to play. overcrowding in bball court + soccer court.
ok. went to the gym. placed our bag on the benches outside the gym. i SWEAR that dere wasnt a bag when i place mine on the bench. dere wasnt evn any bag nearby. after abt 15mins, came out from gym den saw dis grp of gals surrounding the bench. 1 or 2 was actually ransacking my file & i was happily watching from the back. den after all was done i went to take my bag. den 1 of the gal came up & question me.
"is dis ur bag?"
"ya"
"why did u throw her bag down & place ur bag here?" at the same time pointing at another ger."
"huh? wad?" i totally BLUR. coz i SWEAR dere was no bag on the bench in the 1st place.
suddenly they(around 7-8 of them) started to surround me.
i started to apologise to the ger.(i still dunno who) den the other gers was going like "oh-hor u die liao, she's gonna cry.." *diao*
"RUN AWAY" suddenly came thru my mind. i quickly explain myself a lil. & escape once the defence stance relaxed.
i really dun blame them lo. i believe that her bag was originally dere, but some FRAG push it down. (i think i noe who. but without evidence, i wont say anyth.)
once again.. i muz say.. im INNOCENT! dun remb my name! lol =|

PS: to that fren of mine; hey thankz for leaving me dere alone ar. the least u could do was to help me explain! But nvm, i'll remb it. muahahah.

PEACE!!!!!!

knock.

2005-01-16T17:17:00.000+08:00

knock knock.

who's dere?

Hello.

Hello who?

Hello & Byebye!

anger management.

2005-01-12T21:21:00.000+08:00

eh didnt blog for some time le. damn busy. hee.

super blur. went to the wrong gp class ystd. boo. i super anti-gp.

dis yr J1 really power. dere's 2 type of J1.
#1 : paikia / ah beng type who always pon lectures, play ball, do everyth except studying.
#2 : super chiong-ing type, study study & study like next week's A level le omggg.
& 90% r the #2 type.
waaaa super stress leh. i takin 'a' dis yr oso not so hardworkin' lor.

arghh gosh i think i need some anger management course.
i got pissed off really easily. *slaps myself*
im piss when J1s made hell lot of irritating noise in the library.
im piss when J1s took up 80% of our seats in canteen.
im piss when my favourite seat in the canteen/library is being taken up.
im piss when pple gets rough in ball games.
im piss by my darn long timetable.
im piss by tcher who aint passionate enough for their students.
im piss when i keep on d/c from the internet.
im piss when i said sumthing out of impulse which i dun mean it at all.
thus, i usually remain in a very "dao" state. heck care abt almost everything & anything. i dun tok much so tat i wouldnt say anything wrong.

im sorry, but my blog seems to be always filled wif unpleasant stuff. signing off wif a quote to remind myself. "Anger is not something u can get rid of by losing it." - some movie.

Laterz.

weekends!

2005-01-07T12:59:00.000+08:00

ahhhhh finnallyyyyyyy....

some time to relaxed.. wad a busy weekk.. still havt quite adapt to the changes in sch.
todae was quite a breeze. having tkd tml morning. sundae's the grading, i cant miss it dis time.

hmm.. strangely.. quite tired out.. think i betta go get some rest. Laterz.

quote of the dae.

2005-01-06T23:59:00.000+08:00

the known unknows & the unknown unknowns. -Donald R.

thur.

2005-01-06T18:35:00.000+08:00

thur le. 1 more dae to weekends. yea! haf been a bad start since beginnin of sch. it doesnt look bright the next couple of weeks too. test weeks r set but i dunno the chapters. lol' switch off once the tcher mention the word "common test". dis 5 day week sure is dumb. oh ya.. learning YOGA soon. complusory. the P made us do it. arghh. tkd really a bunch of losers. keep asking for money money & more money. damn. cant quit. quit = no cca. bleahz damn tired. argh ystd had PC aka PE. they tryin to be funny. commin up wif weird things since the 5dae wk started. dumb la. made us stay back long hrs after sch. arghhh. bbut i like the PE tcher thou. i bet he's a trainee. coz only trainee will treat us nicely. lol'

hmmm my new class was ok. tryin to make frens wif them. mostly not as dao as me. HoHoHo. ok la. time to go do hwk. damn GP tcher gave alot hwk. Math tcher is a piece of shit. Seriously. boo. Laterz.

gp.

2005-01-04T22:56:00.000+08:00

omfg. todae 3 periods of gp. slowly i begin to understand wad the new gp tcher is like. rj tcher really different. keep on playing mind games. expoilt our weakness from question asked. definitely a women to be feared. im drawing up plans on how to deal wif her. the number 1 most scheming tcher i ever came across. im developing phobia against gp lesson. only thing i can do rite now to to pay absolute attention during gp. & try to act as blur as possible. only way to counter scheming pple is to act blur. i hope it works.

shittt.. gtg rush work. Laterz.

"fan2 ah"

2005-01-04T01:08:00.000+08:00

argh. i always tot 1st dae of sch was easy. WRONG. 1st dae of sch sux. loads of hwk. pervious hwk all included. suddenly theres alot of i-must-hand-up-but-i-swear-i-didnt-noe type of hwk. now rushing. haiz. in new class. nobody to copy frm le. limited options. hopefully my frens who transfer in wif me did their hwk. i cant finish. in fact i spent hell lots of time doing. but i really dunno. damn 1st dae so stress up liao. i really regret coming to jc. haiz. i bet 100% i cant enter uni. i dun even noe if i can get an A lvl cert anot. haiz. im struggling like hell. haiz. timetable the same sucky type. wif lots of break. argh. waste time. i dun like the damn econs tcher. tok crap la. 1st time i wanted to fall aslp during tutorials. i always fall aslp in lec, but nv tutorials. damn. he sure is sucky. gave so much hwk. GP tcher sux too. damn her la. she speaks so softly, as if toking to her pet ants inside her bag. wth. i dunno i can survive ma. i wanna go overseas study!!!! overseas more relax. haiz. sianz. 2dae gonna be a longgggggggggg dae..

i heard on radio deres dis ger who's so damn determine on her goals. she was toking wif the dj abt which jc she wanna go next yr. den she told the dj she had everything planned out. even which uni blah blah blah. becoz she believe tat in order to succeed u muz always plan & set goals str. den the dj was super impress wif wad she said, asked her was she really 16? lol. omfg. u muz be extremely hardwking to said those stuff. i surely cant make it. i always set out lots of target for myself. coz i knew i need to study for the sake of living better when i grow up. i cant be staying here in dis broken hse forever. i stdy for the sake of studying. but im really f up wif jc studies. i juz aint up to their standards. i really feel tt im wasting my 2yrs. not tt i dun wanna study. not dat wad ever u try u work hard enough u will accomplish it. NO. bullshit. work hard doesnt= succeed. i dunno wad im saying im juz really lost. i dunno everything. for every subject. sec sch was better. i juz had to work harder on 1-2 subject that im weakest in. but now its different. all the subjects i dunno. how to continue like dis? i really dunno. mayb i shld juz quit sch now. but i've got nowhere to go. the plan is to finished 2yrs jc den score well enough for uni. den after jc go ns. ns come out str. away uni. that was the plan. the beautiful yet impossible plan for me now. i noe where i stand. & my subj combi is really a killer. pple always say wad a lousy combi dis is. it cant get u anywhere in the uni. well 1 things for sure, it gonna get me killed by the end of dis yr.

Laterz, gtg slp. wait till c wads gonna happen tml.

sch.

2005-01-03T00:22:00.000+08:00

arghhhh. cant slp. sch reopens 2dae. damn. byebye holis. hello nitemare. argh. dunno wads gonna happen dis yr. damn impt yr fer me. well the start of 2oo5 havt been gr8 at all. im down wif flu + sore throat. muz be all the riding in rain + bbq stuff. arghh. mayb i'll take an mc 2dae? skip 1st dae of sch? nah.. im not tt dumb. 1st dae of sch's the bez dae of sch. no need to bring stuff, no hwk to pass up. not test. hmm. but i bet once i got to the new class the tcher's gonna do the stupid introduce urself shit. i hate introduction. totally hate em. sux. argh. juz hope the new class dun outcast us. im gonna go in wif the same i-dun-gif-a-damn attitude. anihow, juz hope tat i still can stay in last yr's chi class. we muz still attend chi class for a couple of weeks. chi class was fun. the pple dere r the really "on" type.. always pon class, talk cock, take long long toliet breaks, cheat in test, blah blah. it sure was fun! argh.

alrite la. getting some slp. im sure i can wake up later. 1st dae is always easy to wake up. its the 2nd dae onwards tat r difficult. hahah. Laterz.

Hellooooooooooooo 2oo5 ! ! ! ! ! !

2005-01-01T02:26:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lala went to east coast ystd.(31/12) for bbq. supposed to be a sec sch class outing. oh well..
spent the whole time dere cycling. it kept on rainning while we were cycling. argggh having a sore throat althou i didnt eat alot. darn. anw, it was a fun dae. betta den staying at home. arghh. sian. new yr liao = sch gonna start soon.
i'll be in a diff class next yr. i personally think jj sux like hell. the P is the worst. im juz 1 of those students in the "forgotten" category tat the P didnt gif a damn abt. coz the P dun think we could do jj any gd, i bet my next yr's timetable will be the same. as god damn long as 2oo4's.. Y? becoz the management is inefficient. dun wanna tok abt. its my own dumb choice to come here la. cant blame anybody. argh sux la. i dunno wad to do after A's. i am so damn sure tat i wont make it to uni. after A's den 2yrs in NS. after NS nowhere to go? maybe i'll go to poly study again? haiz. dunno la. sux la. jc life is really the worst part of my schling daes. juz hope tt next yr will be a betta yr for me & every1 out dere ya. looking back, 2oo4 sure is an unpleasant yr for me.

bye bye 2oo4. =P

Kung Fu.

2004-12-29T01:09:00.000+08:00

bloggin' time has arrived.

im so damn boredddd... So i changed my blog's layout!! hope its betta? or not? hmm... i dun care. rofl.. =P

today went ta watch Kung Fu Hustle. quite a gd show.. some parts super funny! worth my every cent. i like stephen chow films. his films r really gd.. but they r "jiao zuo bu jiao hao" type.. meanin' alot pple watch but its like not "worthy" of an award or anyth. anw its still a gr8 show. i'll rate it 4 out of 5 stars. we even saw malays inside the cinema!! i noe deres eng subtitles, but its my 1st time i saw malays watchin' chinese films, in the cinema dat is. however, some clowns tried to make a fool out of themselve by clappin' irritatingly at regular intervals. plz la.. be more considerate. boo. & tt's a kid behind which at some parts told his fren LOUDLY of wad was gonna happen next, which was of coz quite disturbing' too. Nvtheless its a gr8 show. lalala.

sch gonna reopen.. haiz.. hope my "remainnin" daes will be well spend.

Laterz.

gaara

2004-12-28T01:40:00.000+08:00

2 days nv blog.
sianz.
no mood blog liao la.
bloggin fever is over.
shld start thinkin of other things to do.

You are Gaara
You have the kanji of "love" on your forehead. Aw, isn't that sweet....that is, until you know the rest of what it stands for.
Let this be the last thing your victims hear...don't mess with sand.
Which NARUTO Character Are You?

its snowing.

2004-12-25T01:02:00.000+08:00

Ho. Ho. Ho.

MERRY CHRISTMAS !!!!!!!!!

christmas.

2004-12-24T22:40:00.000+08:00

Eason - 圣诞结

我住的城巿从不下雪
记忆却堆满冷的感觉
思念的旺季　霓虹扫过喧哗的街
把快乐赶得好远
*落单的恋人最怕过节
只能独自庆祝尽量喝醉
我爱过的人　没有一个留在身边
寂寞它陪我过夜
#Marry Marry Christmas
Lonely Lonely Christmas
想祝福不知该给谁
爱被我们打了死结
Lonely Lonely Christmas
Marry Marry Christmas
写了卡片能寄给谁
心碎的像街上的纸屑
Repeat * #
电话不接　不要被人　发现我整夜都关在房间
狂欢的笑声　听来像哀悼的音乐
眼眶的泪　温热冻结　
望着电视里的无聊节目
瘫在沙发上　变成没知觉的植物
Repeat　# #
谁来陪我过这圣诞节.

2004-12-24T15:18:00.000+08:00

Oh Ya...

Merry Christmas Eve !!!!!!!!!!

Eve.

2004-12-24T00:54:00.000+08:00

wentt bball-ing 2dae... ermm shld say ystd. played whole daeee now my legs like super numb liao. arghh. nv-the-less it was fun. didnt lose except the 1st 2 matches + the last, coz all was like super tired. my darn tv mysteriously spoilt Ystd.. went to get a new 1. yeah new tv!

Oh. its Christmas EVE 2dae... hohoho.... i dunno how im gonna spend dis xmas. i think im gonna stay at home or sumth. super no life 1 la. my usual kakis dat always jio me out on xmas eve r all workin' & others seems v occupied. so i think im gonna spend dis xmas at home! but it sure feels strange to stay at home. on xmas eve. arghh. hopes santa visits me! althou i dun haf a chimney i'll leave the damn window open eh! hohoho.

ok. im darnnn tired after bball-ing & the carryin tv stuff.(did i mention i carried it home coz the delivery had to wait till at least mondae & tt's no-way-man so i booked a damn taxi & squeeze it in. its kindda dangerous fer the driver he didnt wanna accept the business but when i said i will pay XTRA den he said okok. haiz. "you qian neng si gui tui mo".. LOL! anw he's happy & so am i. rofl.) Laterz.

fly away.

2004-12-22T21:34:00.000+08:00

went fer sch 2dae. 1h30min lesson. i didnt even finish the 1st damn question. arghhhhh. shitt la.. all my subjects r lousy.. cannot make it ar~ CMI!!!!

bleahz.. went on mini shoppin' 2dae.
brought a new bilabong pencil case.. 19.90 not really expensive but its my most exp pencil case till date. ok la i think.. coz i really nid a new pencil case, my old 1 "broken" liao.. i made until like really ermmmm dirty? lol'

OH!! & i brought ERIKO IMAI new album - [Stairway] !!!

haiz~ nvm i think alot pple dunno who she is. Formerly a member of Jpop's most popular, most talented, most kawaii gal group ; SPEED~!!!! lalalala. But too bad, the dvd cannot view on my com. sianzzz. nvm i already saw wads in it aniway [except the off-shots parts] arghhhhhh.

Laterz.

boreddd.

2004-12-21T23:27:00.000+08:00

arghhh... yet another borinnnnnnnnnnnn' dae..

wanted 2 go town todae but as usually, nobody wanna go wif me.. yawnz.. nvm i'll go tml..

hmm instead went jp wif some frens... chit chat.. blah blah went arcade.. come to think of it, i didnt really visit arcade for a longggggggggg time.. eva since the beginning of dis yr. as usually i didnt play much; reason #1 - im broke. reason #2 - i dun really noe how 2 play most of the games. reason #3 - not much of the game interest me.. (am i a very reasonable man or wad?!) lalala.. but i still manage to play some games, & wasted hell lot of time dere.
my fren told me he earned 5k+ in 4months. chiong all the way. no rest. today 1st dae off den went arcade spent $ lol' lucky not alot. i wanna work but too late. wanna sch reopen liao. lookin' 4 those sell textbks & stuff 1. coz those shit only need to do 1-2 dae.. can earn at least a lil' but too bad, no lobang. the auntie @ the sec sch dun seems to need anymore helpers..i dunno coz nv really did ask. argh shitttttttttttttt her la.. really in need of cash. cant even find those gif-out-flyers jobs dese daes.

i dunno wad else to type. i dunno if i can type an entry everydae. i'll try. arggghhhhh.. my life's really borin'.. time to get a life~

Laterz.

skin.

2004-12-20T13:27:00.000+08:00

OkOk.. i noe i noe. i said i dun like customizin' the blog too much.. hey i lied! rofl.. no i didnt! darn... okok i was like super duper bored den i decided to haf some fun wif the blog's skin & layout blah blah blah, hey it was fun & most importantly time consumin'! muhahaha. ok its dumb. but who cares?

okok. i noe.. its kindda childish (my blog dat is).. but heyy when pple were young they kept on wantin' to grow up quickly, to be an adult, be a man... but hey, when u finally became a so called adult, sometimes u juz wish u were a kid! im not saying tt im an adult now wad-so-eva, ok an young adult perhaps, but im juz saying tt being a kid w/o anyth to worry abt & juz haf fun all day long its kindda fun - infact, very fun. muahahah. how i wish i was a kid again.

im damn hungry now. gonna go grabb somethin' to eat. Laterz.

Ai.

2004-12-19T14:30:00.000+08:00

ok i juz woke up. im sitting infront of the com typin' away. i promise i'll cont' dis bloggin' stuff soon & as promise i'm back. soon enuff eh? its not even 12hrs yet. okok.. i dunno how many pple might be reading my blog hmm... maybe only abt a handful.. i think tt's the most. i havt tell any1 abt dis site yet coz it has only been awhile since i set it up.

i decided not to make my blog too fanciful.. reason being i dun think i'll be bloggin' for long, sch gonna reopen soon & perhaps i would be blogging often den. plus i like things simple as it is. coustomizin' is really a pain in the ass & time consumin'. for example i was trying to get the dumb chatterbox aka tagdoard up, it was easy acquirin' it but i had a hell of a time getting it in place. (im still trying now..) & since everybody is customizin' their own blog, it makes the plain & simple original template unique. ironic eh? dere4, i'll only to customize my blog on 1 condidtion - tt's when im too damn bored. yawnz. ;)

if u haf been reading my blog u'll find tt my language isnt really tt gd. my gp tcher says my language sux. i kinda agree. i nv liked english. maybe only in music. but other den tt, i communicate using mandarin, always. dere4, pardon me if dere's any mistake in MY blog. rofl.

Yawnz.. i've ran out of things to write.. eh i mean type.

lets c.. oh yea. tt's sumthing i always wanted to say. u noe those despo aka desperate pple out dere who r still single & r trying so desperatly to net a g/f or b/f ? heyy im one of those guys too. its alriteee, save the welcomin' party for later. however a part of me keeps telling me wads the use of havin' a g/f juz for the sick of havin' it? to be loved? how long will such "love" last? 1 yr? 1 month? or 1-2 days? wad happens if dere comes a time where u met sum1 so much betta den wad u'r havin'? keep faithful & deceive urself tt u only like 1? choose to 2-time & juggle? dispose the old & head for the new?
im not saying tt is really wrong..mayb dere's only 1 or 2 special cases, but other den tt i think tt such love will never last. welcome to the real world my fren. things r juz as such. the chemistry & spark is wad everybody looks for when finding a parnter. wad if some day dis spark or chemistry starts to fade away? u giv it all u've got but plz, dun expect to get wad u deserve in return.

the principle of equivalent trade - in order to gain somethin' u haf to sacrifice somethin' of equal value. true, but u dun always gain wad u wan even thou u've sacrifice tt sumthin' of equal value.

dere4 i've decided to get out of the "im-desperate-to-get-a-gf" category.
so bring it on... ehhh the farewell party tt is... muhahahaha.....

Laterz.

Ho. Ho. Ho.

2004-12-19T03:40:00.000+08:00

heyy pple.. can u believe it?? i actually got a blog??

its like 3+am rite now.. im trying to set dis thing up for 3 reasons. reason #1 being dat im really really really bored now, reason #2's dat bloggin's the really "in" thing- nowadays? & reason #3 is dat i juz feel like doing dis.

u noe, i've always used to think dat bloggin & stuff like dat r for losers. esp when guys does such things. it used to annoy me. either u're damn bored, or u really got nth betta to do.. hey hey juz hang on a second, dun get offended by dis man, i said i used to think so. so no offence eh, coz im one of those i-got-nth-betta-to-do-&-im-so-damn-bored guys rite now too. Ho. Ho. Ho. =]

i used to wonder y pple do such stuff - posting ur "personal" experience, feelings, stuff, etc online for pple either u knew or some ass who juz happen to drop by ur blog becoz they haf been brought dere by all the clicking & linking form others blog to urs, or those juz happen to be there. wad im sayin is dat if haf something to say or juz havin' an urge to write something down u might as well juz get urself a damn diary & write it in, & keep ur personal stuff personal. but hey on second thoughts, its the damn IT world now. everyth u see, everyth u do, got to be related to computers! who the hell would still post hand written letters to others when it is so much more convenient to send an email or a simple sms. it juz makes sense dat pple r trading away their diaries for blogs. even myself who never ever had a diary had made myself a blog. amazing eh? how technology is influncin' pple?

ok enuff of the damn introduction.. 1 main reason im setting up dis blog of my own is to juz let of some thoughts dat had been in my mind for some time now. however suddenly, i feel no urge in rushin' to let it all out coz im feeling rather sleepy now. rofl. ok i'll juz cont' dis bloggin stuff some other time. Laterz.